After all I went through as a child, it refused to let me be me even into adulthood. I even had a bout recently a few months ago after 20 years of being very healthy.
I found myself asking, “Who was I and who did I become?” I am certainly the same person from before and after being ill, but I do believe that I became remolded into a better version of myself. I am less tolerant of senselessness, more tolerant of being human. I feel what people feel, I can share their joy and feel their pain. The path that was laid out for me throughout my life has gnawed at me into my adulthood and forced me to come face to face with my being and write my book. Sharing my story, giving you the details of what it is like for a child and a family to go through this terrible ordeal, leaves everyone feeling breathless and wanting more, feeling better about themselves and carves a new sense of caring even in the lest understanding of people. Even if they have never been ill, they can feel what I went through and share emotions they may not have known they have. It has become a healing process for me and a wonder to those around me who had no idea about my past. I look forward to the reaction and savor it as well. I have become and grown into a person I love and loving yourself first is the main part of the process of healing. Thank you to my higher power for leading me to do this.
The question of “Who Am ” is one that every cancer patient (and family member) is faced with once you hear the word “remission”. Take the time to figure out who you are without adding additional pressure to yourself. Don’t let the cancer define who you are, but don’ttry to hide it either. You are strong, you are a survivor!
